To my readers.
I don't know who you are and besides what I post on this blog I guess you don't know much about me neither. This blog is me putting what I feel into words and sharing it with the world. At least with the people stumbling onto my blog and deciding to read my words who put together tell the story of my heart. Already as a young child I believed in the power of words. What's been said can never be unsaid. This to me a such a powerful thought that it can make me not want to speak and just listen for a while.
As this has been a one way street for a while now I think it is time for me to ask your feedback. When you read this what are your thoughts? Do I trigger something insead your minds, or do you just think it's plain boring. Let me know anyway. I'm a big girl, I can handle it.
Thursday, March 19, 2015
For the last two weeks my brain has been doing overtime. I've always been a thinker, but it has gotten worse. Working out usually helps me clear my head. But lately there's nothing that can stop my mind from thinking. When I met him I didn't know I would feel this way. My heart knew he would be my crush, or should I say crash, before my head was able to process it. He was nice, funny, tall and easy on the eyes. Me, I was just having fun. I can still remember walking away and having every inch of my body screaming: no go back. But my head said: just keep going. I tried to ignore my gut but it was saying that this was my chance and Ididn't take it. There was a wrong done and I had to make it right. So I did and for a couple of days I felt like I hit the jackpot. He was everything I've been looking for and always thought didn't exist. And I was convinced he felt the same. Well, he did for three days, then it stopped. As I am usually very laidback how I'm handling this comes as a big surprise to me as well. Every day from the moment I get up until I eventually fall asleep all I can think about is him. More what could have been than what has been. Because what has been was so short and so intense that there's not much to wonder about. If this ever can turn into something I have to play it cool and let it be for now. Now is the time to shush my heart and let me head take over.
Thursday, February 12, 2015
Nothing I love more than observing people. In one-on-one conversations or just how they go through life. There's a big disconnect between what people really want and what they are settling for. A subject that keeps my brain busy. There are a million quotes about comfort zones and how if you ever want to cross an ocean you have to let go of the shore. How come some people hold on to the shore but the moment they see another boat trying to cross the ocean they instantly want to jump on board. If you choose to settle then choose your choice. You don't love her enough not to hit on me when she's standing there watching you. Then don't choose to love her. If you do something do it good. Love somebody good or don't love them at all. She didn't force it on you, you chose this. The fact that you're not man enough to swim the ocean is not her fault, it's yours. However if you stay at the shore then make sure you are happy being there. It's hard for me not to judge people who obviously are not content with the choices they have made. She has the right to know the kind of person he is, but I guess: Don't judge, don't tell.